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After my weigh in yesterday I realized that my weight was off on my ticker.  I set this up in October and then life got in the way.  By the time I got back to being serious about losing weight, I was at 208 instead of 205.  Corrected that now.  When I checked in to the hospital Dec. 29th, I was still at 208.  The scale at the cardiologists office yesterday agreed with my home scale - 194!  That’s 14 lbs. in one month with only diet changes - no physical activity yet due to the limitations by doctors because of the surgery and that pesky heart attack 2 weeks ago.  I am so excited that I can’t wait to begin cardiac rehab.  I can’t wait to see where my numbers go from here.  I have had some good days and some bad.  My chest still hurts so much from both the surgery and the heart attack.  But I am healing, inside and out - slowly.  Knowing that my number keeps going to the right helps keep me in a good place mentally.  I am trying hard not to give in to the depression that the majority of heart patients go through.  Since I had a double whammy, it’s not easy.  I have days where I cry in pain from both the physical and the emotional.  I am scared of the future and of the past.  I mourn the life I once knew.  I am not that person anymore and I don’t think I ever will be again.  I don’t know how many more chances I will be blessed with.  I am not about to blow this one.  One day at a time, one meal at a time, one pound at a time.  If I can take this journey, anyone can -

Good health to us all -

Dianna