4mylife

Okay, so everyone knows the best way to lose weight is by combining exercise and healthy eating - right?  Well, I am soooooo frustrated right now.  I was told NOT to change my eating habits drastically after my recent bypass surgery.  They told me to wait until I started cardiac rehab. because I need the calories to heal and changing my metabolism would be too much of a shock to my body after what it has been through.  Called rehab yesterday because that nasty little heart attack last week slowed everything down.  The medical director of the center wants me to wait to start rehab.  He looked and my chart and feels like I need to wait a month post heart attack before starting.  They are afriad since I had an event so soon after bypass, I am at high risk, so I need to wait longer.  First of all this kind of scares me - I like to be positive and think all this is behind me.  Secondly, I am not a person who enjoys laying around. I have always been fairly active.  This means weeks more of spending way too much time on this computer and in my recliner.  They really don’t want me to do more than rest and take short walks around my yard each day, but not too many.  I guess I can see their point.  Don’t want to risk something else happening.  I am so lucky to still be here and so many people are worse off than me.  I guess I need to quit whining about this all and get on with my life.  That’s hard to do.  I feel like my life is on Pause right now if that makes any sense.

The twist mentioned in the title to this blog entry is that February 14th will be 4 weeks after my heart attack.  I can’t help but feel like there is some meaning to that.  After not making the changes I needed to in the past, is this the time it WILL happen?  Will the day that revolves around hearts be the start of my new life?  Only time will tell for sure.  I am still very frustrated.  At 195, I need to lose 60-70 lbs.  I have made little changes to my diet.  I am eating 2 meals a day and having small snacks in between with a very light meal at the end of the day. I am no longer grazing 24/7 like I used to.  I guess it’s a step in the right direction.    I need to exercise and eat right to lose the weight that is killing me, but doing these things right now is not in the best interest of my health.  Is that a catch 22 or what?

So, everyone out there reading this, take a few extra steps for me today and every day until February 14th.  I look forward to joining you all very soon in our journey to get healthy.  For now, I will read your stories to stay inspired and be your biggest cheerleader from the sidelines.  Can’t wait to get back in the game with you all.  Good health to us all -

Dianna